No sweetie, you're NOT still a virgin.

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Cheat cheat cheat...

Week 5 was a bit CHEATY here in my house. *sigh* I went all that time without cheating, cause I knew it would mess up my diet, but then I DID cheat, and it didnt mess it up and I still lost... so now part of my brain is thinking "HEY I can eat a few crackers, and Ill be ok..." Or other various things that it decides I want a bite of. I think once you open the "cheat door" it stays open.
I still am debating how far I want to go on this plan. Obviously with buying a house, we need our money elsewhere, but on the other hand... I REALLY want to keep losing FAST so I can wear my smaller summer clothes in a couple months. Im figuring if I lose 10 lbs in April and 10 lbs in May Ill be fitting in quite a bit of it... Then I can start working out, and transitioning onto another more "real" plan. On the other hand... I cant be paying for this food, and then cheating. It doesnt make any sense!

So needless to say... NO CLUE!!!

I dug out much smaller tankini top that I wore about 6 or 7 years ago (yikes, that was a long time ago) and hung it up on the outside of my pantry... so if you come over and think Im odd, there is a reason its there lol! When I stumble to the pantry to munch on some crackers I will see it there and say WAIT A MINUTE!!!! Crackers wont help you fit in that... and hopefully then I will turn around and get a glass of water instead. LMAO!!!!

Sigh!

And then it all came crashing down

Well it was bound to happen... especially after my "oooooh Im not craving anything" post. I swear its my kids fault. LMAO! (jk) I have more trouble on the weekends when they are home, and here I am with kids home on spring break, and I LOST it today!!!! Did fine, till we were headed home from errands at 1 pm, drove through chick fil a to grab lunch for the kids, and MAN it smelled SO GOOD. So I started mentally having a pity party about why I couldnt have it, and how it wasnt fair, and bla bla bla.... so anyways, I got home and ate a few dill pickles to try and NOT eat anything else, but it didnt do it. I had an itch I had to scratch. :( unfortunately, the fat girl in me likes to RUN down the hill if I happen to step off course... so my one french fry I stole from Ben, turned into a few crackers, and then a handful of trader joes mini chocolate chip cookies, and then another cracker, and then a spoonful of peanut butter. I finally stopped myself there, but then wasnt hungry (and felt kind of sick) so I didnt eat my two afternoon medifast meals... ate dinner, and then decided "WELL IVE ALREADY F'D Up" cause thats how my fat girl inside thinks... so I decided to eat 2 fig newtons that Ive been lusting after for the past month when I give them to my kids for snacks, followed by a LARGE chunk of dark chocolate *sigh*

SHAME ON ME!!!!! Its alright though. Its not the end of the world. I will NOT give food any power over me. Its just food... food is food is food. The most it can do is cause you to not lose, lose a little, or gain... its just food! I am officially brushing myself off, and getting back on the horse. Tomorrow is a new day, with only medifast in it LOL!!!

One month down...

So I officially have hit my one month mark with medifast. At this point, its almost so easy that it feels TOO easy. I find that Im not craving things anymore. Yes I would love to have a sandwich, or a bowl of cereal... but I dont really think about it anymore. I was debating switching over to southbeach at the end of the month, but I really think the amount of prep time and thought that it would require would throw me off. I am going to continue on doing what Im doing for as long as I can. Once Im ready to start the transition phase, I would assume I will sort of merge into a southbeach style of eating... lower carb, but healthy carbs.... (which really is how people should eat anyways)
I feel so empowered to have broken the bonds of carbs, and sweets. I really feel soooo great with how Ive been eating. My face has TOTALLY cleared up (I was suffering from teenage style pizza face before) and Im thinking that it might have taken care of my migraines as well. That being said, its not what Im eating so much as what Im NOT eating that is making those changes... but I feel proud that Ive come this far, and I dont NEED to eat those things anymore.
My family has continued to eat normal around me... enjoying friday pizza night, ice cream, cookies etc as they normally would, and I havent had any! Im so proud of myself!!!

So anyways, down to the stats!!!!
My month is as follows:
Start 3/6/11
1st week: -7.2
2nd week: -3
3rd week: -1.8
4th week: -3
Total for month 1: -15 lbs, and 8 1/2 inches (It would be more if I had measure more body parts lol)

Thats not too shabby in my opinion. I am 5 lbs away from where I was after I had Jacoby (before gaining the 25 lbs that Ive gained in the past 2 years) then from that point Ill have 30 more to go! WOOHOOOO!!!

If anyone wants more information or wants to do what Im doing, here is my coaches website: https://youngforever.tsfl.com/

First full week

Well I did it... I made it a full week completely ON PLAN with Medifast. And I was rewarded for it with a loss of 7.2. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! I know it will slow down, the first week has a nice big loss, but then its slower after that.
I do need to get control of myself though because the past 2 nights Ive been a bit more "relaxed" with my peanut butter, and didnt exactly measure it. I need to make sure Im measuring things... I want to keep losing!!!!

This diet really does suck because I so want to eat something REAL IE a sandwich or pizza etc... but I also really want to lose a lot of weight before summer, and if this is the way I Need to do it, then so be it!!!!

I learned that a good friend of mine is actually a health coach on this program, and she has asked to be my coach, so Im going to switch over to her, and have extra help keeping myself in line!!! If anyone is interested in more info on the program, send her an email... Heres her website:
http://youngforever.tsfl.com/
If the link doesnt work copy and paste. ;)

It really is a great program, and if you follow it, you will be rewarded! Im super excited to see what loss I can get this week!!!

So here are my stats this week:

Total to goal: -50
Week 1: -7.2 (42.8 left)

Day 3

So this morning I woke up so starving, I swear my stomach was trying to eat itself. I was also really weak and shaky. that went away after eating though. I had hot choc for b fast, and it was super yummy. Had a dark choc shake with Ice for  snack, and now I'm sitting down to lunch. My salad is part of my "meal allowence" and the red bowl is mf chili. We will see how it tastes. I added a whole bunch  of hot sauce to it so hopefully that helps lol. Can't wait to feel great and super energized tomorrow!
Just wanted to edit and add, that the chili was not very good LOL! I dont think Ill order that next time. :x

Starting fresh

Its a new year!!! I decided to take up this blogging thing again. Perhaps there is someone out there who might want to read whats on my mind. :)
This was originally going to be a blog strictly about kids etc, when I first signed up (over a year ago) Its going to just be a various subject blog though... whatevers going on, Ill put on here.
Today is January first, so the start of a new year... people usually make resolutions at new years but Ive always felt it was kind of dumb, because if you want to change something, why not change it whenever??? Ive already been working at losing weigh, doing weight watchers and working out etc since September, so I guess I can say Ill continue that??? I would like to get my flubber butt into my big box of "skinnier" summer clothes by summer, so I have my work cut out for me.

Ive been working out with the Chalean extreme video set, which is heavy weight lifting. Its really awesome! Ive always wanted to have sculpted muscles so Im holding onto hope that under all my fat Im developing some LMAO!
I am shocked at how weak some women are though... seriously 3 lb weights?? HAHHAA I could lift those with my toe ;) hehehee!!! I need to save my pennies up for the selectech adjustable dumbbells, because otherwise Ill be shelling out money left and right to buy heavier weights, which might I add are ridiculously expensive! $42 bucks for a set of 2 dumbbells? no thanks!!!

All this weight training has been making my weight go up though (added in with all the crap I ate over the holidays) and thats really REALLY frustrating. I hate to feel like Im wasting my time... if I could have eaten that cookie and still weigh the same, then why did I resist it? LMAO! I know I need to just keep at it though, and eventually it will come off!
Anyways... thats my thoughts for today. :)

Breaking my blogging cherry

Well here we go... this is my first attempt at a blog and I cant guarantee it will be anything exciting or worth reading, but I can always try right? I would like to apologise in advance for my overuse of smileys, and 3 periods in a row... (hehehe) that is how I type for GOD knows what reason. Anyways, a bit about me. I am a crazy mom of 3 (as you should know by now) I am 28 years old, and have been married to my hubby for 8 years. We met when I was almost 16, and started dating the day after my birthday. We've been together ever since... Got married a few months after I turned 20, and OOOPS surprise we were preg! (thankfully our wedding was coming up, so it was no biggie heheehehe) Our unplanned blessing was quite an adjustment, but an amazing adition to our lives. I wouldnt trade him, or my time with him for the world. Anyways, his name is Benjamin, and he is 7 1/2 years old. He goes to 2nd grade and sorry to brag, but he is absolutely adorable, insanely silly and funny, and quite a smart cookie!!! ;) 2 years later we decided to try for another baby, and got preg quickly, without any thoughts I blurted to the world about it... unfortunately I miscarried (in a horrible tramatic way, but we can save that for another post) fortunately we concieved again straight away after the miscarraige and got preg with Olivia. Miss Olivia is almost 5 (3/11) and quite a ham. She is a girly girl, yet also a crazy goofy little thing. She is QUITE the mini me... (acting as I do NOW, rather than I did as a girl though lol) Nothing like having a daughter!!!! And finally the bundle that completes our family is Jacoby. He was 1 on 10/14. Jacoby is absolutely adorable, and unbearably smart... he is absolutely AMAZING with how much he knows, understands, and can say already!!! He is going to be a crazy crazy child lol! He is a fan of climbing EVERYTHING, and is quite a busy boy. Love him to pieces though!!! (of course as i love my other two lol)
So anyways, not sure if that went off on an inproper tangent, but thats my family...
Hubby works two jobs cause we dug ourselves into a financial hole by moving cross country to AZ in early 07, then moving back in late 07... so he is never home... works m-f 9-5 type of thing, then weekends all day at another job as well as monday, tuesday and wednesday nights. *sigh* I miss my hubby! It is HORRIBLY stressful kind of being a single parent... but you gotta do what you gotta do.
anyways. I think Ill leave this at that for now... just a Intro type of thing to start out!!!! Thanks for reading