Cheat cheat cheat...

Week 5 was a bit CHEATY here in my house. *sigh* I went all that time without cheating, cause I knew it would mess up my diet, but then I DID cheat, and it didnt mess it up and I still lost... so now part of my brain is thinking "HEY I can eat a few crackers, and Ill be ok..." Or other various things that it decides I want a bite of. I think once you open the "cheat door" it stays open.
I still am debating how far I want to go on this plan. Obviously with buying a house, we need our money elsewhere, but on the other hand... I REALLY want to keep losing FAST so I can wear my smaller summer clothes in a couple months. Im figuring if I lose 10 lbs in April and 10 lbs in May Ill be fitting in quite a bit of it... Then I can start working out, and transitioning onto another more "real" plan. On the other hand... I cant be paying for this food, and then cheating. It doesnt make any sense!

So needless to say... NO CLUE!!!

I dug out much smaller tankini top that I wore about 6 or 7 years ago (yikes, that was a long time ago) and hung it up on the outside of my pantry... so if you come over and think Im odd, there is a reason its there lol! When I stumble to the pantry to munch on some crackers I will see it there and say WAIT A MINUTE!!!! Crackers wont help you fit in that... and hopefully then I will turn around and get a glass of water instead. LMAO!!!!

Sigh!

And then it all came crashing down

Well it was bound to happen... especially after my "oooooh Im not craving anything" post. I swear its my kids fault. LMAO! (jk) I have more trouble on the weekends when they are home, and here I am with kids home on spring break, and I LOST it today!!!! Did fine, till we were headed home from errands at 1 pm, drove through chick fil a to grab lunch for the kids, and MAN it smelled SO GOOD. So I started mentally having a pity party about why I couldnt have it, and how it wasnt fair, and bla bla bla.... so anyways, I got home and ate a few dill pickles to try and NOT eat anything else, but it didnt do it. I had an itch I had to scratch. :( unfortunately, the fat girl in me likes to RUN down the hill if I happen to step off course... so my one french fry I stole from Ben, turned into a few crackers, and then a handful of trader joes mini chocolate chip cookies, and then another cracker, and then a spoonful of peanut butter. I finally stopped myself there, but then wasnt hungry (and felt kind of sick) so I didnt eat my two afternoon medifast meals... ate dinner, and then decided "WELL IVE ALREADY F'D Up" cause thats how my fat girl inside thinks... so I decided to eat 2 fig newtons that Ive been lusting after for the past month when I give them to my kids for snacks, followed by a LARGE chunk of dark chocolate *sigh*

SHAME ON ME!!!!! Its alright though. Its not the end of the world. I will NOT give food any power over me. Its just food... food is food is food. The most it can do is cause you to not lose, lose a little, or gain... its just food! I am officially brushing myself off, and getting back on the horse. Tomorrow is a new day, with only medifast in it LOL!!!

One month down...

So I officially have hit my one month mark with medifast. At this point, its almost so easy that it feels TOO easy. I find that Im not craving things anymore. Yes I would love to have a sandwich, or a bowl of cereal... but I dont really think about it anymore. I was debating switching over to southbeach at the end of the month, but I really think the amount of prep time and thought that it would require would throw me off. I am going to continue on doing what Im doing for as long as I can. Once Im ready to start the transition phase, I would assume I will sort of merge into a southbeach style of eating... lower carb, but healthy carbs.... (which really is how people should eat anyways)
I feel so empowered to have broken the bonds of carbs, and sweets. I really feel soooo great with how Ive been eating. My face has TOTALLY cleared up (I was suffering from teenage style pizza face before) and Im thinking that it might have taken care of my migraines as well. That being said, its not what Im eating so much as what Im NOT eating that is making those changes... but I feel proud that Ive come this far, and I dont NEED to eat those things anymore.
My family has continued to eat normal around me... enjoying friday pizza night, ice cream, cookies etc as they normally would, and I havent had any! Im so proud of myself!!!

So anyways, down to the stats!!!!
My month is as follows:
Start 3/6/11
1st week: -7.2
2nd week: -3
3rd week: -1.8
4th week: -3
Total for month 1: -15 lbs, and 8 1/2 inches (It would be more if I had measure more body parts lol)

Thats not too shabby in my opinion. I am 5 lbs away from where I was after I had Jacoby (before gaining the 25 lbs that Ive gained in the past 2 years) then from that point Ill have 30 more to go! WOOHOOOO!!!

If anyone wants more information or wants to do what Im doing, here is my coaches website: https://youngforever.tsfl.com/

First full week

Well I did it... I made it a full week completely ON PLAN with Medifast. And I was rewarded for it with a loss of 7.2. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!! I know it will slow down, the first week has a nice big loss, but then its slower after that.
I do need to get control of myself though because the past 2 nights Ive been a bit more "relaxed" with my peanut butter, and didnt exactly measure it. I need to make sure Im measuring things... I want to keep losing!!!!

This diet really does suck because I so want to eat something REAL IE a sandwich or pizza etc... but I also really want to lose a lot of weight before summer, and if this is the way I Need to do it, then so be it!!!!

I learned that a good friend of mine is actually a health coach on this program, and she has asked to be my coach, so Im going to switch over to her, and have extra help keeping myself in line!!! If anyone is interested in more info on the program, send her an email... Heres her website:
http://youngforever.tsfl.com/
If the link doesnt work copy and paste. ;)

It really is a great program, and if you follow it, you will be rewarded! Im super excited to see what loss I can get this week!!!

So here are my stats this week:

Total to goal: -50
Week 1: -7.2 (42.8 left)

Long week

Well Ive had a LONG week here... full of drama, and hunger.

Got kicked out of a mom group that I have been a part of since moving down here, AND accused of lying to everyone LMAO (SIGH) And started my diet of course.

Everythings been going great with the diet... I had a rough day on day 4. For some reason I was all depressed and wanted to give up. (I didnt though) the thoughts going through my mind were soooo depressing, but apparently it must have been part of the detox, cause I woke up the day after feeling perfectly fine... (and grateful that I hadnt eaten something I shouldnt have the night before) Im on day 5 today, with my first weigh in coming on Sunday. Im super excited (snuck a peek at the scale early yesterday, and was down 9 lbs) I cant wait to see what Im down on Sunday.

Today is Olivias birthday which means cake and ice cream tonight, but I will not be having any, nor will I partake in the takeout dinner. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels. ;)

Day 3

So this morning I woke up so starving, I swear my stomach was trying to eat itself. I was also really weak and shaky. that went away after eating though. I had hot choc for b fast, and it was super yummy. Had a dark choc shake with Ice for  snack, and now I'm sitting down to lunch. My salad is part of my "meal allowence" and the red bowl is mf chili. We will see how it tastes. I added a whole bunch  of hot sauce to it so hopefully that helps lol. Can't wait to feel great and super energized tomorrow!
Just wanted to edit and add, that the chili was not very good LOL! I dont think Ill order that next time. :x

Day one

So, day one of medifast is underway.
I had hot cocoa for my first meal. It tasted like hot cocoa... Not bad. Second meal was a dark chocolate shake. Buzzed it up in my blender with ice, not too bad. I've been drinking tons of water like your supposed to. The peeing is going to put a damper in my social life lmao. Didn't think I could pee so much.

I thought at first this would be easy peasy, but I think I'm generally not as hungry in the am... Right now I'm feeling pretty hungry. About an hour till I eat again... ill make it. Im planning on staying completely on program, because cheating, even just a tiny bite can totally throw you off. And I want this weight to come off fast. From what I've heard the first few days, to week really suck as you detox and go into ketosis (fat burning stage) so I'm prepping for the worst. So far today isn't bad.

On it's way...

I put my food order in tonight. I'm waiting on pins and needles now for it to arrive! I'm so excited and optimistic for this weight loss plan. I'm hoping to be able to dig around in my "too small clothes box" this summer. I will be discussing my plan and progress on my blog, so stay tuned.
The plan im doing is medifast. Everything I've read about it is fabulous, and I know several people on it. I'm super exited!